When you're slowly bringing yourself to a boil over the various things simmering inside your head.
When the conversations you're trying to have don't go anywhere because the people on the other side of them keep blinking out like little green dots on a screen, one by one.
When every new incomprehensible word you encounter feels like a new mallet hitting the inside of your skull.
When auto correct keeps making you do the same word. Over. And over. Again.
When your internet's off and it isn't coming back on again. When you've been lied to so many times now, that you just don't care anymore. Don't care if it's a lie. Don't care if it's the truth. Gimme what I want. I want what I want. Give it to me.
When you're doing something wrong and you should tell other people coz they gotta know... but they can't see, can't see the other side, can't see what you're up against..
When you're so angry you want to be smashing skulls in a professional capacity. After all, you are looking for a second job.
When the anger runs circles inside your head. And it feels like you're swimming in quicksand. When your meds are far, far out of reach, and you know, you know it's only gonna get worse.
The frustration is only peaking. Either which way, I mean.. you could see, or you might not, but there's still only a forbiddingly closed door behind those curtains.
And the sleep is back, the sleep is back. Always, always the sleep comes back during the day.